Diaper Humiliation: To Poo or Not to Poo

To poo or not to poo. That was the question that entered my mind the first time doing a diaper humiliation session with Mistress.

I had never worn adult diapers before, but was curious and since I have a bit of a humiliation fetish, I felt as though that would play right into it. I figured she would make me tinkle. What else would I do with a diaper? If you are going to be forced to wear a diaper, then clearly mommy mistress would force you to USE the diaper. I did assume it was just pee-pee.

To be honest, I wasn’t sure if she would ask me to do number 2. I didn’t know if she would ask and I didn’t know if I could go along with it if she DID ask.

That first diaper humiliation session was better than I imagined.

Mommy Lillith was in complete and total control over her newbie diaper lover. She was actually nice to me. Perhaps it was because I was such a newbie and very naïve. There was something sinister in the way she laughed. Was she being nice? Was she poking some fun at my expense? I guess that would be my naïveté poking through.

I struggled to wet my diaper. I was incredibly nervous. She had me on cam, and KNEW whether or not I was doing as told. I was relieved (pardon the pun) to not have to try and FILL the diaper until it sprung a leak. She had mentioned that, that may be in the cards for me one day.

I did get to breathe a sigh of relief that this time she hadn’t asked me…but that relief was soon pulled from me.

The second diaper humiliation session I found myself much more comfortable peeing. Perhaps too comfortable, because Mommy Lillith picked up on my ease and comfort level with having to pee on demand. Then…the demand came.

She made me poop in my diaper

I had to catch my breath. You could tell she seen the shock in my face as she laughed, crossed her arms and demanded I follow through. I thought to myself “could I do it? Should I do it?”

Here I am a grown man. Never been in a diaper before.  Yes I am a humiliation addict, but had never experienced diaper humiliation – guess there is a first time for everything. And she certainly seemed to thrive on “popping my diaper pooping cherry”

Mistress Lillith is intoxicating, her demands may seem like a stretch, but she is worth it. She had me hypnotized

Sure enough after some coaxing, I found myself pushing out a big ball of poop.

Was I embarrassed? Hell Yes. Humiliated? Over the top. But, in a weird way, I was also proud for completing her diaper humiliation task. I was happy to please my mistress, and isn’t that what you are supposed to be doing in femdom sessions regardless of your fetish? I think it is.

The next time we had a session, I was instructed to put wife’s panties OVER the top of my diapers. I did have to use them, and I had to hope that it didn’t spill out and stain my wife’s panties. Of course I complied, I may be her diaper wearing humiliation slut, but I’m not stupid.

*Guest post from a newbie diaper lover of mine. Current clients are welcome to request to become a guest poster, please contact me if you’d like to guest blog* 

Diaper Assignment

This Diaper Assignment is a kinky outing type assignment. I don’t always post assignments for everyone to see but every so often I want to see the response with completed assignments.

How often do you scour the web for free diaper assignments? Lucky for you, your mommy mistress is going to give you just that. I adore my diaper lovers, adult babies and sissy babies. And I know those special abbie clients of mine, adore me. I often offer EXACTLY what they are looking for. Someone that knows the kink and the lifestyle, someone that GETS IT, someone that loves this particular fetish, this abdl fetish.

My diaper boys and girls, are some of the most fun, unique individuals. Its because each is so different and unique, one may enjoy diaper humiliation – one may like CBT coupled with diaper wearing and sissy outfits – one may want to drink from a bottle, suckle on a cock shaped pacifier and wear a ducky onesie. The sky is the limit, not one of my diaper lovers or adult babies is exactly the same. Each has their own kinks, their own quirks. I get it, and I love that about them.

Now, back to the diaper assignment. If you are a diaper lover and crave public humiliation this one will be great for you!

Mind you, I don’t generally involve the public, but on occasion and if its harmless, its fun and exciting. I actually see this assignment as being a simple public humiliation assignment. You may not be humiliated, you may be excited about it.

To get credit for your diaper assignment, you need to follow ALL the rules below, (you can also comment with your assignment response below)

What is the diaper assignment?

  • Go to a store. Any store, just a public place. I don’t care how many people are there, or whom is there. BUT, you DO have to strike up a conversation with a cashier. Find one that is friendly, one that you can easily just talk about the day with. (I may give ‘extra credit’ if you found someone a tad grumpy but a grumpy one will be less likely to want to play). It can be a cashier or someone helping out in the store.
  • Make a kink confession, or just a confession if you will about your love for wearing diapers and ask if he/she wouldn’t mind snapping a photo of you while you are pretending to shop or looking at baby items, or girlie clothes/lingerie or even just in some chip isle…WHERE you are may earn extra credit points (more for diaper isles) but that creative part is up to you. 😉
  • Make a purchase from the store, preferably diapers or other adult baby attire, but again can be anything. This is just to pay respect to the store you were in to complete your diaper assignment.
  • If you want to just complete the assignment, you can drop a photo and comment below on how it went OR if you want to be considered for a spot in my abdl hall of fame do the following:

~Submit a write up of the experience: where you went, whom you spoke with, explain a bit about the picture.

~Submit 1-3 photos of you shopping WITH your diaper showing. You will also be required to release photo rights to ME. The photos may be used on my blog – and/or shared on twitter

~If chosen for the diaper lover hall of fame, you’ll get your own page and photo similar to the others on that side. I will respond with the information on that. 😉

~deadline for the hall of fame portion is: April 30th, 2016. All entries after that must be posted below in the comments section.

~Submit entries to madamerotic @ gmail with the subject title of : Diaper Assignment ; with the information above

Good luck! (Note to the wise, don’t email asking for a free diaper assignment. This IS your assignment. If you want another more personal assignment, sign up for a session or email training.)

Exposed Diaper Lover: Kenny Kimmell

Another Exposed Diaper Lover to Out

It is always exciting when I have another exposed diaper lover ready to out themselves. They are required to tell me a bit about themselves, submit a write up about themselves, and submit a few pictures. As always, I wont put an all picture blog post up, It needs substance.

It’s not always about just asking to be outted either. There are lots of sissy babies and diaper lovers our there that WANT to be exposed, they WANT the attention—but I have certain hoops you must cross over first.

Hoops like (1) submitting a written release that could hold up in any court situation. I get the rights to the pictures, so there is no backing out on your end (2) in the event you are desperate to have them come down there is always a steep fee involved and (3) You still need to acknowledge that in the world wide web…pictures and content are lifted and taken without permission. I will never and cant ever be held accountable for that – with that said so long as I have complete control of the rights to the photos it wouldn’t matter anyway. And I make it done in such a way that it IS considered a legal binding contract. There are things I do as far as the photos go to make sure that you have the rights to give in the first place. It is an involved process, but the results are fun for ME and for my exposed diaper lovers. Above all – there is a fee to being exposed.

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Jumping through all those hoops gets you posted in the exposed diaper lovers hall of fame and you get your only little spot in the internet.

Kenny Kimmell jumped through the hoops, and now we are here. He is being exposed as the diaper loving baby dick that he is.

This diapered loser still lives with his mom!! Guess that is why he needs a mommy mistress! I will commend him on the pictures he sent ~ HAHAHA I had to squint at the first one to see if perhaps there was just a growth on him…but I guess that is where the penis is supposed to be. I’m guessing he’s able to fit into smaller diapers because of that smaller little dick. I wonder if his mommy still have to change his stinkies?exposed diaper lover -- tiny dick, sph

Here is what Kenny Kimmell had to say in his little excerpt:

“My name is Kenny Kimmell, I’m 31 years old, and I live in central New Jersey with my mom.  I have a small baby dick and I love wearing diapers.  I pee and poop in them like a baby.  I haven’t gotten laid in a few years.  I have an overactive bladder and I pee a lot so diapers help.  I used to wet the bed until I was a teenager and I’ve wet the bed in my adult life a few times.  My bedroom often smells like pee.  I try dating normal girls but they always run away when they learn I wear diapers.  I need to let the world know I wear diapers so girls stop getting disappointed.”

If you see Kenny on twitter, let him know you KNOW about his tiny dicked, diaper wearing fetish lifestyle…Kenny Kimmell is being exposed diaper loverexposed and being inducted into the diaper lovers exposed hall of fame.

Welcome home…there is no turning back.

Santa Gives Coals, Mommy Gives Bare Bottom Spankings

If you have been a naughty sissy baby or adult baby or even a naughty little diaper lover this year you know Mommy Mistress Lillith is just waiting for the opportunity to administer corporal punishment, by way of bare bottom spanking.

bare bottom spanking from Mommy MistressI’ll pull that pamper just until those little bare bottom cheeks stick right out – and I will give you a spanking with my bare hands until those little cheeks are a beautiful shade of Christmas red.

Perhaps I should bring along all of my mistress friends to administer a swat or two – switching it up between using our hands or using one of our various instruments.

You’ve been naughty, I don’t have to check the list twice.

Get over here and drop those drawers—time for your bare bottom spanking!

Sissy Pissy Puddle Maker

You are a messy little diaper lover in training aren’t you? I say, “in training” because you are a diaper lover that doesn’t yet KNOW you are a diaper lover. Your mommy mistress is here to wake you up to this realization and force you to love your diapers.

Do you know why you need to be forced to wear diapers?

It’s because you are a messy sissy pissy puddle maker!

sissy pissy puddle makerYou like to wear your man pants, trying to hide your pretty sissy panties underneath.  You like to feel secretly girly and yet ache to feel outwardly girlie.

You stand there, looking at yourself in the mirror, becoming overly excited about the prospects of actually walking around in sexy feminine clothing and lingerie. Most men that get overly excited just experience some humiliating premature ejaculation.

That little cockette of yours may rise to attention, BUT you aren’t spewing those cummies in your panties. You are tinkling down your leg.

You leak and piss all over your leg like an over excited sissy bitch dog. You are a sissy pissy puddle maker.

You stand there red in the face only to realize you are being watched. Being watched by someone like me that will quickly muscle you down to the ground, to rip those pants off and force a diaper onto my sissy pissy puddle maker.

I may have a friend or two help me force you down, but you WILL wear the diaper. When you leave this room you will take the walk of shame. You don’t get to put pants back on, you’ve already soaked them

EVERYONE will know what a diaper loving, sissy pissy puddle maker you are. Even if you don’t love your diaper now…you will – very soon.

The Humiliation of being a Diaper Lover

There are some fetishes that rarely go beyond the erotic fantasy realm. Some would love nothing more than to be forced into a pair of frilly panties, forced to walk down the road in some stiletto heels and then forced to suck a juicy, fat cock. Those fantasies sound wonderful in their head and we engage in erotic role play doing just that. However, there are a few fetishes, that are more lifestyle and they reach beyond the fantasy realm.

The reality for diaper lovers, is that they, more often than not, don’t get to really enjoy their diapers just in their mind. It is a part of them. It is something that constantly eats at them until they finally give in, toss the big boy pants aside and grab for the puffy pampers.

They will often fight the feeling, fight the urge, thinking it would go away eventually. But, be honest…how many times does that denied feeling just come back with an even larger, raging uncontrollable desire?

That is perhaps, where the humiliation of being a diaper lover sets in.

Let’s face it. Diaper lovers are of a special breed and are often humiliated, even in the fetlife world.

It is seemingly taboo for a variety of reasons, and yet it’s something diaper lovers can’t really control.

They WANT to be able to wear their diapers in public, 24/7. They want to go to work in them, sit at home in them, go on dinner dates. They want to be able to use those diapers whenever they please both wetting and messing their diapers. But, there is certainly a stigma attached to it.

You are supposed to be a macho man, but you are a diaper lover

You are supposed to use the big boy potty, but you go in your pants

You are supposed to NOT want to be in the diapers, but you do

There is no escaping your diaper loving desires, and as a result there is no escaping the inevitable diaper lover humiliation that goes right along with it.

Are you ready to further explore the humiliation of your diaper loving fetish?

Meet Sissy Diaper Baby Zachary

unnamedHello my lovely diapered boys and girls! Time to out another diaper wearing sissy girl! I know you all just love being the center of attention and this little attention whore just can’t wait to strut her stuff on my blog.

Zachary is from New York and identifies with the name Sissy Diaper Baby. Can you guess why? HAHA

Because she LOOOVES to dress up like a sissy baby girl. Wearing unnamed (2)diapers as often as she can and wetting and messing in them are the highlight of her day and she’s been doing it her whole life. She SAYS she loves being forced into becoming and being a baby girl, but of course, I don’t think there is much forcing on that end. I think she does so willingly and loves every minute of the forced diaper bliss.

But, she does have visions of her mommy mistress kidnapping her and forcing her to be a sissy baby full-time with no escape, and no freedom to do otherwise.  She could be my diaper wetting sissy baby girl forever, for or against her will.

unnamed (1)She came to me and begged me to out her. She wanted the humiliation of not knowing what could possibly happen next with an outing in a public forum such as my abdl mommy blog.  She is well aware that once it’s on my blog – it’s out there. It is possible to find. I have several hundred viewers and readers weekly, not to mention my followers via twitter. If someone wants to find you, they most certainly will. It won’t be long before googling your name will lead you right to this post.

I always tell my devoted followers to be careful what they wish for – even if somehow it was agreed to be deleted (and trust me that is a high price to pay), there is never a guarantee its gone forever.

If you see Zachary, make sure to stop by, say hi, and offer a diaper change! LOL

Are you interested in being outted? Send me an email for all the information. For those that are terrified of their identities being posted anywhere, it should be known that those I out, ask for it…in some form or fashion 😉 And even if it IS done as a public humiliation punishment for not obeying a rule, it was agreed to at some point prior. I will never post super personal information without consent. 😉

When did you become a Diaper Lover

There is a commonality among diaper lovers – that being, that this particular lifestyle (or just fun little fetish for a few) begins at a very young age. I haven’t run across to many diaper lovers that just woke up one morning and had a desire to put on a diaper. That is not to say it doesn’t happen, it’s just rare.

Even WHEN that rarity comes about, you have to ask why?

I bet when you find that anwser, that anwser is somewhere along the lines of ‘I’ve always wanted to try it’

I do like to ask the question –

When did you become a diaper lover?

Was it during your prepubesent years when you would steal diapers from a younger sibling to put them on? Would you prance around your room, shaking that padded bum and pretending mommy was in there baby-ing you instead?

Or perhaps you had a naughty babysitter than enjoyed playing dress up with her sweet little babykins. Perhaps those times of you being forced into a diaper at a young age just grew up with you and you’ve always enjoyed it.

There is also the situation where you have a vengful step-mother that forced your age regression and constnatly treats you like a baby to humiliate you and degrade you further, to show you that she is the ‘top bitch’ around here…and you are the bottom!

There is always a starting point to becoming what you are. There is always some type of catalyst that forces you out of your shell – and forces you to begin a lifestyle you may not have seen before.

You ARE a diaper lover my dear. When did YOU discover your love and obsession with diapers?

Macho Man by Day , Diapered Loser by Night

Who are you really? By day you are the boss, the man in charge. Perhaps you wine and dine and charm all the ladies that have caught your eye. You order people around at work and have a plethora of subordinates that answer to you for various reasons.

You are dressed accordingly and certainly not dressed like anyone that enjoys a fetish lifestyle…especially one of the diapered kind.diapered loser boys

Perhaps you are the type that is fairly active in your community. Always making sure you put on a pretty face, keeping your collar clean and not stepping on any toes. Even if there WAS an inkling that you were into a fetish lifestyle, it would be assumed that you would be the dominate one. You would be the one tying girls down and spanking their behinds until they beg and scream for more.

But…that isn’t the case with you, is it?

Its quite the opposite. YOU are the submissive seeking dominate female. Above that, You hold a secret- one that is even regularly hidden from fetishists- Your day time gig is your costume, but who you are at night, is who you REALLY are

…and you are a diapered loser.

You want your mommy mistress to force you into the diapers, force you to wet them, perhaps be a disciplinarian mommy that gives you over the knee, bare bottom spankings when you step out of line. You want to regularly be reminded of where it is you belong…and that is trapped in a fresh, new diaper…day in and day out.

You are in the closet for now, but you have visions of your mommy mistress coaxing you out, somehow outing you to the public and showing everyone who you really are.

Following me, you will become that diapered loser that you know you already are. Perhaps one day that line between the day time you and the night time you will be blurred.

Who knows, very soon, you could be wearing a diaper TO work…then which ‘you’ would you be wearing?

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You are the epitome of a diaper lover

You just love to dance around and play around in your little diapers. You love the feel of that cushion-y cotton wrapped around your bottom. You may even open the diaper up and rub it all over your body.  Just lying on the floor sniffing a newly opened package of.

DSCN1840Do you prefer cloth or disposable?

You get extremely aroused when you have your fresh new adult baby diaper on and you sit in front of a mirror; you decide to empty your bladder and watch the little bears and ‘wetness protection’ lines disappear.

Your diaper thickens as it gets wet, and tightens as your arousal also grows.

You decide to rub on the front of your diaper with your hands – just as you are instructed to do by your mommy mistress.

But as your arm squishes against your stomach while your hand is inside the diaper, you realize…you’ve emptied your bladder – but now have to do the same to your bowels.

Don’t worry, this is just part two of your ‘dirty doings’ as commanded. You do as you are told, and you feel the excitement ready to explode out of you.

But, you haven’t been given permission to cum. So you release what you HAVE been permitted to release…and I want to hear you grunt as you mess your diaper.

You’ve made a wet, yellow mess. A stinky, brown mess…and now you will be instructed to complete the trio with making a sticky, white mess.

There are fun little things we will do during your special kind of threesome going on in your diaper…don’t think you are just allowed to empty and run. There is tease and denial all along the way. You have to work and EARN your release, and you love every moment of it.

From the time you pull that diaper out, to the time you pull it off.

I bet you are wondering, just how long I’ll make you sit in that mess…

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