The Humiliation of being a Diaper Lover

There are some fetishes that rarely go beyond the erotic fantasy realm. Some would love nothing more than to be forced into a pair of frilly panties, forced to walk down the road in some stiletto heels and then forced to suck a juicy, fat cock. Those fantasies sound wonderful in their head and we engage in erotic role play doing just that. However, there are a few fetishes, that are more lifestyle and they reach beyond the fantasy realm.

The reality for diaper lovers, is that they, more often than not, don’t get to really enjoy their diapers just in their mind. It is a part of them. It is something that constantly eats at them until they finally give in, toss the big boy pants aside and grab for the puffy pampers.

They will often fight the feeling, fight the urge, thinking it would go away eventually. But, be honest…how many times does that denied feeling just come back with an even larger, raging uncontrollable desire?

That is perhaps, where the humiliation of being a diaper lover sets in.

Let’s face it. Diaper lovers are of a special breed and are often humiliated, even in the fetlife world.

It is seemingly taboo for a variety of reasons, and yet it’s something diaper lovers can’t really control.

They WANT to be able to wear their diapers in public, 24/7. They want to go to work in them, sit at home in them, go on dinner dates. They want to be able to use those diapers whenever they please both wetting and messing their diapers. But, there is certainly a stigma attached to it.

You are supposed to be a macho man, but you are a diaper lover

You are supposed to use the big boy potty, but you go in your pants

You are supposed to NOT want to be in the diapers, but you do

There is no escaping your diaper loving desires, and as a result there is no escaping the inevitable diaper lover humiliation that goes right along with it.

Are you ready to further explore the humiliation of your diaper loving fetish?

Meet Sissy Diaper Baby Zachary

unnamedHello my lovely diapered boys and girls! Time to out another diaper wearing sissy girl! I know you all just love being the center of attention and this little attention whore just can’t wait to strut her stuff on my blog.

Zachary is from New York and identifies with the name Sissy Diaper Baby. Can you guess why? HAHA

Because she LOOOVES to dress up like a sissy baby girl. Wearing unnamed (2)diapers as often as she can and wetting and messing in them are the highlight of her day and she’s been doing it her whole life. She SAYS she loves being forced into becoming and being a baby girl, but of course, I don’t think there is much forcing on that end. I think she does so willingly and loves every minute of the forced diaper bliss.

But, she does have visions of her mommy mistress kidnapping her and forcing her to be a sissy baby full-time with no escape, and no freedom to do otherwise.  She could be my diaper wetting sissy baby girl forever, for or against her will.

unnamed (1)She came to me and begged me to out her. She wanted the humiliation of not knowing what could possibly happen next with an outing in a public forum such as my abdl mommy blog.  She is well aware that once it’s on my blog – it’s out there. It is possible to find. I have several hundred viewers and readers weekly, not to mention my followers via twitter. If someone wants to find you, they most certainly will. It won’t be long before googling your name will lead you right to this post.

I always tell my devoted followers to be careful what they wish for – even if somehow it was agreed to be deleted (and trust me that is a high price to pay), there is never a guarantee its gone forever.

If you see Zachary, make sure to stop by, say hi, and offer a diaper change! LOL

Are you interested in being outted? Send me an email for all the information. For those that are terrified of their identities being posted anywhere, it should be known that those I out, ask for it…in some form or fashion 😉 And even if it IS done as a public humiliation punishment for not obeying a rule, it was agreed to at some point prior. I will never post super personal information without consent. 😉

When did you become a Diaper Lover

There is a commonality among diaper lovers – that being, that this particular lifestyle (or just fun little fetish for a few) begins at a very young age. I haven’t run across to many diaper lovers that just woke up one morning and had a desire to put on a diaper. That is not to say it doesn’t happen, it’s just rare.

Even WHEN that rarity comes about, you have to ask why?

I bet when you find that anwser, that anwser is somewhere along the lines of ‘I’ve always wanted to try it’

I do like to ask the question –

When did you become a diaper lover?

Was it during your prepubesent years when you would steal diapers from a younger sibling to put them on? Would you prance around your room, shaking that padded bum and pretending mommy was in there baby-ing you instead?

Or perhaps you had a naughty babysitter than enjoyed playing dress up with her sweet little babykins. Perhaps those times of you being forced into a diaper at a young age just grew up with you and you’ve always enjoyed it.

There is also the situation where you have a vengful step-mother that forced your age regression and constnatly treats you like a baby to humiliate you and degrade you further, to show you that she is the ‘top bitch’ around here…and you are the bottom!

There is always a starting point to becoming what you are. There is always some type of catalyst that forces you out of your shell – and forces you to begin a lifestyle you may not have seen before.

You ARE a diaper lover my dear. When did YOU discover your love and obsession with diapers?

Macho Man by Day , Diapered Loser by Night

Who are you really? By day you are the boss, the man in charge. Perhaps you wine and dine and charm all the ladies that have caught your eye. You order people around at work and have a plethora of subordinates that answer to you for various reasons.

You are dressed accordingly and certainly not dressed like anyone that enjoys a fetish lifestyle…especially one of the diapered kind.diapered loser boys

Perhaps you are the type that is fairly active in your community. Always making sure you put on a pretty face, keeping your collar clean and not stepping on any toes. Even if there WAS an inkling that you were into a fetish lifestyle, it would be assumed that you would be the dominate one. You would be the one tying girls down and spanking their behinds until they beg and scream for more.

But…that isn’t the case with you, is it?

Its quite the opposite. YOU are the submissive seeking dominate female. Above that, You hold a secret- one that is even regularly hidden from fetishists- Your day time gig is your costume, but who you are at night, is who you REALLY are

…and you are a diapered loser.

You want your mommy mistress to force you into the diapers, force you to wet them, perhaps be a disciplinarian mommy that gives you over the knee, bare bottom spankings when you step out of line. You want to regularly be reminded of where it is you belong…and that is trapped in a fresh, new diaper…day in and day out.

You are in the closet for now, but you have visions of your mommy mistress coaxing you out, somehow outing you to the public and showing everyone who you really are.

Following me, you will become that diapered loser that you know you already are. Perhaps one day that line between the day time you and the night time you will be blurred.

Who knows, very soon, you could be wearing a diaper TO work…then which ‘you’ would you be wearing?

Cock Teasing Diaper Session Trifecta

You are the epitome of a diaper lover

You just love to dance around and play around in your little diapers. You love the feel of that cushion-y cotton wrapped around your bottom. You may even open the diaper up and rub it all over your body.  Just lying on the floor sniffing a newly opened package of.

DSCN1840Do you prefer cloth or disposable?

You get extremely aroused when you have your fresh new adult baby diaper on and you sit in front of a mirror; you decide to empty your bladder and watch the little bears and ‘wetness protection’ lines disappear.

Your diaper thickens as it gets wet, and tightens as your arousal also grows.

You decide to rub on the front of your diaper with your hands – just as you are instructed to do by your mommy mistress.

But as your arm squishes against your stomach while your hand is inside the diaper, you realize…you’ve emptied your bladder – but now have to do the same to your bowels.

Don’t worry, this is just part two of your ‘dirty doings’ as commanded. You do as you are told, and you feel the excitement ready to explode out of you.

But, you haven’t been given permission to cum. So you release what you HAVE been permitted to release…and I want to hear you grunt as you mess your diaper.

You’ve made a wet, yellow mess. A stinky, brown mess…and now you will be instructed to complete the trio with making a sticky, white mess.

There are fun little things we will do during your special kind of threesome going on in your diaper…don’t think you are just allowed to empty and run. There is tease and denial all along the way. You have to work and EARN your release, and you love every moment of it.

From the time you pull that diaper out, to the time you pull it off.

I bet you are wondering, just how long I’ll make you sit in that mess…

Naughty Plastic Pamper Wearing Joewee’s Apology

My pathetic little rubber pants boy, Joewee, decided to get a little bratty with mommy. My last post had pictures of when someone decides they know better than I do…and now this one decided to question me. And while asking a question, and awaiting a response, he decided he could do whatever he wanted.

That is certainly not the case, my adult baby, diaper lovers and rubber pant boys can NOT do whatever they want when they belong to me.

Here is my apology to Mommy Mistress Lillith:  My name is baby joewee and I have been a brat to my mommy. I have a tendency to blurt out things that I latter have to apologize for.

Mommy is patient with me but I know I try her patience. She deserves ultimate respect. She works hard. And I have no right to EVER say “no” to her. I have no right to EVER delay any of her requests for service. Mommy can and will destroy my reputation someday. I know it. It is in her nature to destroy the fly that landed in her golden threaded web. All I can wish for is to delay that day as long as possible.  I’m pretty sure a contract will be coming soon where I will have to pledge my allegiance to Mommy Lillith only. Divulge all personal information and submit dirty diaper photos to her.  So that she can systematically keep me as a puppet on her marionette strings. Again I AM sorry mommy for being such a jerk boy.

My sissy babies will throw little tantrums from time to time, and I understand. But, there are consequences to their actions — each and every time.

This time little joewee got off easy with a simple apology. Hopefully he will learn…mommy mistress is in charge. Not baby, and CERTAINLY NOT some rubber/plastic pant wearing diaper boy!

Naughty Sissy Baby Exposed

I simply adore my sissy babies and diaper lovers. They are always such a blast to play with and train to be into the perfect abbies they’ve always wanted to be.

Some need just a little extra push. They know they want to be out of the closet, they WANT the world to know they like wearing diapers. And little sissy babies like Sidney NEED the expose to snap him into shape.

I would really like for sissy babies to stop referring themselves as ‘MEN’. It is something you have never been, and something you will never be. To be honest, the faster we get this through that thick baby diaper and your little pee brain—the better everything will be.

Now, I don’t just OUT my sissy babies without their knowing. It’s part of their training or they’ve asked for it *snickers*. I have several that like to be outted, and like I say—once I take the time out of my day to post and out them…It STAYS there. (there are a FEW exceptions, but those are few and far between)

Sissy Baby Sidney has been a naughty, bratty, obnoxious, immature girlie boy and its time to share him with the world. He needs to remember who is in charge. (You should see the message he sent when he didn’t get his way—he needs a few OTK spankings for being so obnoxious)

Sidney, needs LOTS of public humiliation and exposure. There is no turning back now ~ Once something is on the internet, it is ALWAYS there…deleted or not…although, don’t expect this to ever disappear.

You are getting what you ultimately deserve naughty sissy baby Sidney!

Diaper Trainees and Diaper Checks

Diaper checks are a requirement when you are one of my diaper lover trainees

It is just like my little pets locked in chastity, they are required to show proof they are still locked, and you are required to show proof that YOU are still wearing a diaper. It is quite simple really.

  • It keeps you on your toes.
  • It keeps you honest
Some of my adult baby diaper lovers think they can pull one over on this phone mommy, but, you cannot. I always find out the truth.

It is a simple task, but for some reason has many of you on edge. That is what it’s supposed to do. I want you to be a little uncomfortable, wondering when your ABDL mommy will do a diaper check.

The diaper checks are never the same

I do expect a picture of you in your diaper emailed or sent as a file via instant message. But, I make it so that you can’t just stock pile a bunch of pictures. One day you may have to take a picture holding proof of the date and time next to it. One day may be a particular symbol that I have you draw on yourself just before, or have you making a particular hand gesture, or even take a picture of a particular angle.

You are given a specific amount of time to complete the task, and should you FAIL that task there is certain punishments and more requirements to meet before I even consider forgiving you for not keeping up.

As an added note, regardless of WHY you didn’t complete the task—it is seen as you not abiding by the rules I’ve given you for your full time diaper wearing training, or diaper training in general. Excuses are not excusable; I am a strict abdl phone mommy.

Think you could handle random diaper checks? Well, if you are one of my diaper trainees—you are expected to, whether you can handle them or not.
The REAL question is…where will YOU be when I require one?

 

Sissy Baby Training: Humiliation not always a punishment

Humiliation is part of the training and not always form of punishment. For the trainer it is much fun. The baby, even though feeling very much ashamed, will nevertheless gain thrills and erotic pleasure out of the situation.

Already the entire situation as such is very humiliating. Alone the fact that a grown-up man is being incapacitated in all ways and gradually being transformed to a female infant is extremely shameful and can hardly be beaten. The age is regressed to that of a toddler and in some aspects even beyond, and her manhood is entirely denied.

No matter what treatment is applied to baby, it is done in a most shameful and humiliating manner.

Her bottle is filled with formula, not just ordinary milk, and definitely not juice or some other drink. (Though milk, and later warmed milk, to start with is fine.) When Mommy changes the diapers, she always comments, what she is doing. In this way it is implied, that baby needs Mommy and is dependent on her. But nevertheless, the comment should be degrading. She could say something like: “Oh! Did my little darling wet her nappies again? You are so lucky that Mommy pins you into a thick set of diapers with some snug plastic panties to keep your haphazard wetting under control.” This goes for everything like bottle feeding, or generally feeding, bathing, bringing to bed, whatever. Independent how humiliating or unpopular a measurement is, Mommy always states it from a positive point of view. Everything that is done to baby’s discomfort is a necessity. Spreader pants or chastity belt, a ridiculous outfit or an enema, all is only for the best of the trainee. This is communicated to baby in a most convincing way, but nevertheless she is being embarrassed at the same time.

Adult Babies should always be presented to the female friends of Mommy, to baby’s shame and ridiculousness.

Curiously, they observe everything, make their comments and participate. They have much fun in joining the babyfication, even bring up own ideas, how a baby must be treated. She is pampered, changed, fed, dressed, and perhaps even made a sexy Lolita. She is just a plaything at the mercy of the women.

The Adult Sissy Baby is humiliated outdoors. This has many aspects and is up to the fantasy of Mommy.

Nevertheless, the following should be exercised in public. Some are for beginners; others are for babies, where the age regression has already progressed substantially:

Having baby packed into extra thick diapers, which is obvious to other people.

Having baby suck her pacifier.

Having her on baby reins.

When buying diapers, having baby accompany Mommy, and expose her in front of the sales personnel.

Having baby soil her nappies at the wrong time; this can be enforced by giving baby a suppository before leaving the house.

Changing the diapers in the baby station of a department store.

For these outdoors humiliations, an exception can be done, and baby is allowed to walk. Nevertheless, a prissy sissy mince should be enforced.

 

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Living Life A “Little” Differently Episode 3: “ ’Big’ Problems Cause Big Problems”

“Are you excited little buddy? Today is the day that Mommy and Jordan go to “Roller Coaster Land to spend the WHOLE day together!” I say, as I gently rub his left shoulder while sitting on the edge of his bed. The sun creeps through his partially open, dinosaur decorated window blinds, warming his cheeks and assisting me in the process of waking little Jordan. When finally coming to, Jordan rolls over to face me, and as he does so, his typical heartwarming, kiddish smile spreads across his face. “wewewewelly?” Jordan asks, disbelieving, yet excited at the same time. ” Yes honey, really” I say.” “Now, let’s hurry and get you dressed and into your wheelchair, so that we can have some breakfast before we go.”

About 20 minutes later, while sitting at the breakfast table, the telephone rings. Answering it, and listening to the person on the other end, I try my motherly best to conceal any indication of the bad news.” Yes sir, that’s great. That’s wonderful news. I can be there in one hour.” After hanging up the phone and replacing it to its proper location, I turn to Jordan who I know will only see the negative side of the situation.

“Honey. That was Mommy’s new boss. Because Mommy is so happy to have you, she needed to find a job so that she can take care of you better. Mommy’s boss wants her to start working today, which means… we won’t be able to go play today after all….I’m sorry, but I promise we will go someday soon.

At this point, all hell breaks loose as .Jordan begins to throw a tantrum that would make a hurricane look like a drizzly mid-summer shower.” JORDAN, you know better than to act that way Young man, .Mommy loves you very much, but if you don’t stop acting that way, you will be grounded from watching Caillou, playing with your dinosaurs, coloring, or doing anything fun. Do I make myself clear?” The tirade does not stop. Okay Jordan, Christopher, if you want the punishment, you are going to receive the punishment. Mommy tried to talk to you, and make you feel like a big boy, but you just don’t want to listen, and Mommy has to get ready for work…”

 

TO BE CONTINUED…

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